"The dedicated are the luckiest..."
This was a quote via A Mountain Stands, Scott Sonnon's autobiography. These words have been ringing in my head all day since I read them. There is no secret I give a lot of respect to my coach and respect his work and efforts; but these hit me hard.
Allow me to share some transparency. I am a serial failure. I do not identify as 'a failure', but rather someone who hasn't found his fight to win yet. I have done something of everything. Seriously...name a job and I probably have done it. I was always called a quitter because I was always willing to try something but when I felt that it wasn't for me I would continue my search. I was bad in school book wise. Now (thanks to learning about learning styles from Scott's work) I have started back again with a more productive approach.But nonetheless I never knew what I wanted to do. The humorous part is I actually did, but I lacked the courage to go after it.
Here is the history of what I wanted to do:
So back in Cali and putting my life back together once again. My father called me one day and said that he had been driving by a martial arts school and told me I need to get something that can be a credential for training. It had been the one constant in my life and the one thing I was really good at and he said I should at least be able to use it to some sort of monetizing or professional extent. He had a point. Later that day my best friend called me and said, "did you know Scott Sonnon has his own workout program?" I said I knew he had one but I didn't know about it. I knew Scott for his martial arts and learning style work. Well he said I should check it out because he thought it would be something that lines up with my background and I could do well with it and there's no one in my area who does it....little did we know how right he was.
September 2014 I decided to buy the TACFIT 26 program. I would train at home and if I could get good at it I would consider if I could teach it. So began a monster of an ambition growing inside me.
By my third month I said I want to teach this, this could be good for me. I still thought it would be something I did in addition to whatever with my life. I did not have the faith in myself to own my own business and be my own billboard. So I saved up and saved my spot for the seminar with Scott...in Bellingham...by myself. I got my prep-schedule and proceeded to go to school work and train. What a trial that was and it was only the beginning.
March came. Ticket and bags in hand at 4AM with no knowledge of what was ahead of me I flew up to Washington which I had moved back from not even a year earlier. It was ironic that I had returned back in search of my path forward. A friend drove me up to Bellingham and dropped me off at the Bellingham Athletic Center where the seminar was to be held. It was 25 minutes before close and the young man said that I could do some mobility in the room. Surreal feeling circled standing in a room that I had seen in videos for years. I moved around the mat and tried to Zen out
I stayed at a friends house in Bell-ham who went to Bellingham University. I stayed on their 4ft long couch while he and his friends and roomies came in and out of the bars and such at all hours.
The morning came and I took a cab the athletic center. I got there as early as I could.Everyone started pouring in and started introducing themselves. It was a relief to see the vibes were inviting.
I was warming up and I saw Nikolay walk in with all the manuals and such then behind him I saw Scott himself pushing a mop bucket into the seminar room. He told everyone to clear the room and proceeded to mop it himself while going on about the different types of bacteria we do not want on us. I was immediately impressed that he simply did that himself. Most well known teacher I have ever met do not mop the mat anymore. Any one of us would have done it, but he did. I went up to Scott to introduce myself and I couldn't hold back a huge cheesey smile and that it was nice to meet him. He was very gracious and kind. Again not as common among teachers these days. Most people in a position as him have what I call "bad sensei syndrome" and almost treat their profession as a burden and those who learn from them "fortunate" to be doing so. Oddly enough through all my preparation meeting Scott as a person was the part I had the most nerves about. I didn't want to just learn the system I wanted to be apart of the community, and expressing my genuineness was an important part for me.
The clock hit 7AM and the seminar began...
I immediately saw that there where somethings that I had not trained properly both technique wise and conditioning wise. If it was not for an impromptu technique lesson after the first day with one of the coaches I would not have passed. I was nervous to a physical point. This was my one shot. If I had not have passed I do not know when I would be able to try again. So I had two choices : collapse under the weight of energy, or try to rise the best I could.
I returned to that 4ft. couch that I couldn't sleep on after the first day petrified. I couldn't sleep. I got about 4 hours. The next day came and when I walked in and I decided to try and rise. To be put simply I gave in to everything and...
I lost my mind.
I pushed and pushed and recovered and recovered and I refused to fail. In the midst of the second day I was preforming next to one of the students testing for his level 2 and it ignited a fight in me and I started chasing after him and his technique which I had NOT trained for at all. Jumping Med Ball slams ( I had not done previously) Ring mowers ( had not done). It was during those jump slams that I decided this is what I WILL do with my life. This will be my superhero gift.
Then the QUAL came and I decided to give it my all. We even ran short of time so we only got 25 mins of rest between the last protocol and the QUAL test.
24 mins and buckets of sweat later...
I passed. Barely. by 1 point and right about my 80% mark. I collapsed.
The rest is a blur. I got to have dinner with Scott and some of the others from the seminar
I was emotionally drained but it was a hell of a way to end it.
I came back and I committed myself to TACFIT. I hit the ground running.
I got cards made, shirts, hit gyms to introduce myself, I took a personal loan so I could only bartend still on the weekends and weekdays I could do school and market and build a business, I gave my pets to a family friend to be take care of because I had not the money nor time to properly care for them (which was one of my hardest emotional sacrifices), and I strive and hustle everyday to be doing something to forward my passion. I sacrifice because only the dedicated are the luckiest and I have had nothing but bad luck my whole life and squandered my gifts.
I am tenacious.
Scott can tell you that I flood his inbox constantly and I probably post on the CST/TACFIT pages almost as much as anyone other than him. I keep waiting for him to tell me to shut up at some point ( sorry, Scott. Thank you for your graciousness ). But that is because I have a desire to contribute. I want to be an asset that grows what I love not just utilize it. I don't have a plan B. I found a system that has martial arts, fitness, therapeutic principles.
By being a TACFIT coach I get to be the superhero I always wanted to be. I get teach people how to be there own Batman.
TACFIT, to me, is martial arts for life and movement. My goal is still to travel the world and teach others The value that I have found in the CST/TACFIT program.
I believe in being in abundance and then abundance shall circulate back. Paulo Coelho wrote, "when you dedicate yourself to what you were meant to be doing, the whole universe conspires to help you achieve it." I believe in those words and I have been putting faith in them since Scott shook my hand and handed me my certification.
Now you all have met me. Truly. And you know my intentions and why I am so committed. Why I am online or teaching constantly. I cannot help but see the amazing things that Scott is trying to do and how CS/TACFIT helps so many people, and I cannot help but wish to follow suit.
TACFIT Ventura city classes are official and In print in the My Ventura Magazine! So excited! Registration start August 24th and classes start Sept. 14th!
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A friend of mine told me people like content, and if you want them to work with you then you need content for them to get to know you.
Well here it is.
This is the story of how I first found my flow, and how I have driven myself to be a mad man not just tenacious for success but to help people. See those people become superheroes. Whether they be my coach and fellow instructors, or the clients and students I get to teach.
Thank you all for allowing, supporting, and accepting my eccentricity and my desire help everyone find their flow. Thank you to Scott for not being sick of me yet. Thank you to Alberto for being an inspiration of how to lead from the front and inspire other to also.
I hope one day to train with you all.
Deepest respects to you all, Legion.